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Dark fears light, cold fears warmth, not the other way around, remember this brothers and sisters. https://arsonistcookbook.wordpress.com/

Hollowed

…when there’s nothing left to be said. When the mind hides behind dreams of violent conclusions and drifting memories, what’s left to be explained? More importantly where does one find the words? It starts with the complicated end that fractured the will. Flesh. Weak meat tied up in delusions of self importance. I remember reeling in the fish and watching it choke… red and dark. Blue and red. Red and dark.

I wish to God I could find the words. It’s like a faded memory of something pleasant that comes with a scent on the wind. Images fade the waking mind but the memory is still warm and comforting. And no matter what I possibly hope to say, it won’t change the wane of the day. It won’t change the cosmos at play.

The dance began as a playful sort of innocence that blossomed beyond the control of either body involved. Love is like that. You can’t choose it and you sure as fuck can’t ever hope to control it.

The cement room is dark and musty and full of horrible memories of a childhood spent dreaming and ending screaming. FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD! FUCK EVERYTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR! He screams the lyrics at the top of his lungs as he feels the numbness spread. He takes another sip of cheap vodka and pukes a little bit of it back into his mouth. He swallows the puke because his pride will allow no weakness. He takes another lortab and beckons the devil in the corner of the room a little closer. The tears come from nowhere and are just as sudden as the laughter that chases them away.

Because I could write a million words and still never tear this goddamn disease from inside of me. I can’t remember myself before that night. Who the fuck was I to be so foolishly oblivious. They say what point is there to dwell on the inevitable? I say what is the fucking point of denying and ignoring it? Go ahead and bury that shit 6 ft deep in your subconscious, watch it dictate and control your every goddamn move anyway. I embrace the darkness. I have no choice. It swells and grows in me. Dreams of red. Dreams of black. Dreams of the faces of people I’ll never see again. Dreams of a truth better left with the dead, when there’s nothing to left to be done and…

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Posted by on November 1, 2016 in Paradise Drift

 

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Thoughts On Ashes of Ariandel DLC

Hey everyone, so despite being sick as hell I still got a chance to playthrough the first DLC for Dark Souls 3, Ashes of Ariandel. I enjoyed the hell out of this dlc and it has reinvigorated my interest in the game as well as my brothers and my buddy Rien. We have all been replaying the whole game so it was definitely in my opinion worth the 15$ asking price as it yielded hours and hours of gameplay for all of us. Let me know what you guys thought of the new area and new bosses and whether or not it was worth it to you. Love, Jaxxsin

 
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Posted by on October 26, 2016 in Video Games

 

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Neverwinter Storm King’s Thunder, A Casual Perspective

Hey everyone, this is just a video I wanted to throw together examining the latest free content update for Neverwinter, The Storm King’s Thunder. Hope you all enjoy and let me know in the comments what you think of this new expansion. Till next time keep being awesome everyone! Love, Jaxxsin

 
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Posted by on October 24, 2016 in Video Games

 

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Fallout 4 & Skryim Remastered Will Get Mods For PlayStation 4

https://bethesda.net/#en/events/game/mods-and-4k-coming-to-ps4-for-skyrim-and-fallout4/2016/10/04/221

Hey everyone, just wanted to talk about the Mod situation for Bethesda titles on the PlayStation 4. Hope you enjoy and till next time keep being awesome everybody. Love, Jaxxsin

 
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Posted by on October 6, 2016 in Video Games

 

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Phil Spencer Thinks Recore Reviews Were For Views

Neogaf Thread
http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?t=1289927

MCV Article
http://www.mcvuk.com/news/read/spencer-believes-some-reviewers-give-low-scores-for-clicks/0173544

Hey everyone, just wanted to talk about this because this is just one example of how these companies cripple themselves due to their arrogance. Accepting flaws is not a bad thing. It makes everything better in the future. Love, Jaxxsin

 
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Posted by on October 6, 2016 in Video Games

 

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Jaxxsin’s Asshole Commenter Roundup BONANZA!

Hey everyone, this is just a video I wanted to put together examining a couple of the more idiotic comments on my channel. Hope you enjoy and till next time, keep being sexy you little pumpkin dumpling darlings!! Love, Jaxxsin

 
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Posted by on October 5, 2016 in Video Games

 

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Let’s Talk About Geoff Keighley, Sean Murray & No Man’s Sky

neogaf thread

http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?t=1286954

So am I paranoid? Or did Geoff Keighley know Sean Murray was lying and decided to stay quiet and not do the right thing? I dunno, but the whole thing smells like shit to me. Love, Jaxxsin

 
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Posted by on October 5, 2016 in Video Games

 

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